A Gift From God- Enjoy Your Life

I was spending some quiet time with the Lord yesterday. We went to a quiet cafe away from town, ordered a drink and pulled out my bible. The book I was reading was Ecclesiastes. It was written by Solomon, the richest and wisest king ever. He is so rich that he can buy and own anything. Whatever he desire, he can have it immediately. He has like 700 concubines? Seriously? Girls are dying to be part of his harem. I bet he don’t even remember or know most of them. Nations far away were impressed and looked up to him. They gave their daughters and princesses as tribute to this man. Sounds like a good life? 🙂

Vanity, Chasing After the Wind

So what is the advice from the richest man ever live?

“Meaningless! Meaningless!” says the Teacher. “Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.” Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom, and also of madness and folly, but I learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind. For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief. ~Ecc 1

Everything is meaningless, vanity and chasing after the wind. Even his wisdom brought him grief. He hated life. I encourage you to read this book on your own.

Whatever my eyes desired I did not keep from them.
I did not withhold my heart from any pleasure,
For my heart rejoiced in all my labor;
And this was my reward from all my labor.
Then I looked on all the works that my hands had done
And on the labor in which I had toiled;
And indeed all was vanity and grasping for the wind.There was no profit under the sun. Ecc 2:10-11

So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. And who knows whether that person will be wise or foolish? ~Ecc 2: 17-19

This reminds me of many of the celebrities and famous people today. They have fame, money, friends, throw luxurious parties anytime they want. Many are addicted to drugs. How many famous “stars” have gone in and out of rehabs? How many commit suicide? Nobody is already surprised by divorces of celebrities couples. Robbin Williams was a comedian, net worth of US$50M and he suffered from depression. He hanged himself. He can make people laugh but he can’t make himself happy.

Only God can fill the void in our hearts. No enough money or material possession can make one happy. It is a Gift from God. I am so excited at what Kayne West is doing. He is making a difference by bringing Christ into this part of the world that is in total darkness. I am so proud of him that he dare to be different and stand out when he know people will bash and persecute him. There is so much emptiness in this industry and many “stars” we see on screen are suffering offscreen.

What are We Chasing Today?

This is really a good time for us to reflect on our lives. Not just the last one year but the last decade. What are we chasing? Popularity? Fame? Money? Power? At what expense? We should cherish what we have because they don’t last forever. My parents are aging. Your child is growing up. Do we take care of our body? We only have one body and I don’t think there is any shops that we can get spare organs from.

I knew a friend who changed her job as it promises 3 times her income. But she has to be overseas for 3 years. Guess what? She left her husband and son behind and pursue her career. I don’t know about you but if my spouse chose to see me only once a year, I can’t say it’s a blissful marriage. The choice is obvious.

In my own personal life, I was such a people pleaser. I spend money on friends and men to get them to like me. I wanted to be accepted and popular with everyone. I was chasing money and sales targets because that will being me friends and popularity. People will look up to me! I often get so stressed and suffered from anxiety attacks and hyperventilation. When a colleague sales exceed mine, I work all the harder to prove my worth and value.

To be honest, I hated my job and wanted to leave so many times. But The Lord told me to stay as it will be the same everywhere I go. Why? Because even if my environment change, I didn’t change. I am still me. My inner world will create the outer world.

It’s all vanity and meaningless. I am so thankful that The Lord has captured me in my folly and helped me to focus my attention on things that are important. What is important? Nothing is more important than spending time with God. He gave me a gift when I spent that 1 hour in the cafe with Him.

This is what I have observed to be good: that it is appropriate for a person to eat, to drink and to find satisfaction in their toilsome laborunder the sun during the few days of life God has given them—for this is their lot.

Moreover, when God gives someone wealth and possessions, and the ability to enjoy them, to accept their lot and be happy in their toil—this is a gift of God. ²⁰They seldom reflect on the days of their life, because God keeps them occupied with gladness of heart. ~Ecc 5:18-19

God knows my struggles and He hears my prayers. So He gave me a gift. The gift to have wealth and possessions, the ability to enjoy them, ability to accept my portion and be happy in my work. And I will be so busy enjoying life and be happy in my heart that I have no time to think of my past.

I want to encourage you to receive this amazing gift too!

I was close to tears but I cannot cry as I am in a cafe with strangers around me. I was tempted to doubt but I. reject that lie. God is a good good Father. He gives good gifts to His children. A lot of people has wealth and possession but they can’t enjoy them. Maybe they died early or are sick. Many have their wealth wasted by spoilt children. Many lose their sleep as they are so worried that one day the market may crash and they lose everything. Many cannot accept what they have, they crave for more and more and more. It’s endless and meaningless.

Ecclesiastes 5:10-20

Whoever loves money never has enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with their income. This too is meaningless.
The sleep of a laborer is sweet, whether they eat little or much, but as for the rich, their abundance permits them no sleep.
I have seen a grievous evil under the sun, wealth hoarded to the harm of its owners, or wealth lost through some misfortune, so that when they have children, there is nothing left for them to inherit.

As we cross in 2020, let us be wise and discerning. Exercise wisdom to know what to do at the right time. Cleanse our heart from idols like fame, money, power for they keep us in bondages. Pursue God. Ask Him to bless us with good things, helps us enjoy our lives, our friends and family. All good gifts comes from heaven. Ask Him to help us do things that truly bring joy to our souls.

Start enjoying your life today!

Be Anchored in 2020

5 more days to a brand new decade! Are you ready? Are you excited? Looking back the last 10 years, I was often driven around by my emotions. Especially when I was in my 20s. Well, I forgave myself. I was young and immature, not strong in the word of God. I allow my feelings, every wind of doctrine and the opinions of men, to blow me around. I was easily shaken and affected by other’s comment. The word to describe me is “confusion”. There is no clarify in my vision. I constantly meditate on the comments of people.

The year 2020 is the start of a new decade, year of election, but to me, it also means having a 20/20 vision. Perfect vision. How can we have perfect vision? There is 2 areas that I would like to talk about. Many of us received vision from God and we are excited for the new year. But along the way, we get distracted and lost. What affects our vision? The key to a victorious and successful 2020 is to focus. Be Anchored. Be Steadfast. Be Immovable.

Where there is no vision, the people perish- Proverbs 29-18

Declutter Your Social Circle

Who do you keep company with? Who are the top 5 people you hang out with? They will shape your destiny. Are they strong in the Word? Do they inspire and challenge you to live a godly lifestyle? Are their words wholesome or vulgar? Do they make you feel small and put you down all the time? Are you being controlled by them without even knowing? Do you often have imaginary conversation with them? Do you imagine how they will like you and approve of you? Do they make you feel guilty and threaten to reveal your secrets? I know how you feel and it really sucks to be in that position.

Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm.
~ Proverbs 13:20

You know what? It is ok to change your friends. I did it so many times. It’s a great exercise because when we grow, people come and go. Let them go! Many people I know declutter their house for Christmas. Many people talk about decluttering their mind by meditation or going away for a holiday. Why not declutter your social circle? Please do not get me wrong. I am not telling you not to love them or cut off ties with them. Some people are in your life for a reason and some are for a season. For some, you can only love from a distance.

Remember Lot? His righteous soul was tormented daily due to the things he hear and see everyday. He remained in that environment and when disaster strike, his sons in law thought he was joking. His daughters mindset were so perverted that they take turns to have sex with their own father.

Some friendships do not last, but some friends are more loyal than brothers.
~ Proverbs 18:24

So how do you declutter your social circle? First of all, please be prepared that you may be alone for a while (you will enjoy that). You may be ‘talked about’ for a while. So you need to be confident in who you are. Know that God will bring you new friends when you set yourself apart for Him.

First group of people to declutter are what I call the toxic friends. They are controlling and belittling. They do not live godly lifestyle, e.g. smoking, gambling, engage in casual sex. I know such things are rampant in the world. But we must remember that we are not of the world and we do not love things of the world. We are set apart. This group of “friends” often make you do things that are against your conscience. They mocked you for your faith and beliefs. They may be “christians” and still attend church. They will seared your conscience and desensitised your conviction. Too much repeated exposure will numb you to the point where you can no longer easily distinguish between good and evil. In some cases, you may need to cut off ungodly soul ties as the bondage is very deep (personal secrets were exchanged and there is co-dependence). This is especially you need to text or talk to the person everyday. It’s unhealthy and too much dependance on them. This will give the devil a open door to control you.
I will not fellowship with these people unless I felt that there is a purpose. God may have a word for them or I may need to invite them to church. Even then, it will be “touch and go”. Keep them in prayer. Pray for their salvation and Holy Spirit to touch them. We are not their saviour. Salvation is of The Lord.

I have a church member who happened to live near me so I met her often. Her constant outburst of anger drains me. She was in and out of a relationship with a married man which she said she wanted to get out. She is always late, sometimes up to 1.5 hours and not apologetic about it. Going to church with her often made me missed worship. One day, she was blasting out at someone on the phone, took out her cigarettes and started smoking. You see, they will test your boundary. They want to test see how much you can accept their nonsense (they know you want to reach out to them). But I am not desperate for her friendship. If I can’t influence her to pursue God, I will not be influenced by her. That does not mean I don’t love her. I do! But I cannot conform to her lifestyle and compromise. So I prayed for her often. I prayed Holy Spirit will draw her back to His arms and help her to cut off her addictions and bring peace to her heart.

Second group of ” friends” to declutter are gossipers. Do they love talk about others? Do they share with you latest news about that brother/ sister who bought a expensive watch? Never trust these people with your secrets. They say things you like to hear. They wanted to “protect” you so they need to tell you how horrible that person is. But Holy Spirit is your guide. Do not let your perspective or discernment be clouded by they words. Constant “drinking” from gossipers corrupts our soul. These are weeds in your heart that chokes the Word of God. Repent and stop the ungodly fellowship. Take a stand and share with the person truthfully. They may be offended and that is fine. Bible has so many verses that warns us about friendships and gossipers. These group of people have a spirit of division that Romans 16:17 warned us about. If you need someone, to talk to, go to the Holy Spirit. Go to the throne, not the phone. Do remember to keep them in prayer.

A troublemaker plants seeds of strife; gossip separates the best of friends.
~ Proverbs 16:28
‘Whoever covers an offense seeks love, but he who repeats a matter separates close friends.‘ ~Proverbs 17:9
The words of a gossip are like choice morsels; they go down to the inmost parts. ~Proverbs 18:8

You will be surprised. People will respect you more when you decide to walk away from that abuse. Make a decision to declutter your social circle. By removing the above 2 groups of people will make your life so much more refreshing. Finally you can start breathing fresh air! Be bold and confident to say no to gatherings that you do not have peace about. We must not do it in a rude way. I learnt to say “no” politely. Soon, they stopped calling you. 😀 Dare to be different, hold your head up high and know you are the child of the Most High. Ask Him to direct your path to new friends. Let Him choose your friends! But first, let Him be your best friend.

Word of God

This book is constantly persecuted. It was burned and even banned in a few countries. I read that a bible was found in a toilet in North Korea and the lady janitor was fed to dogs. During the period A.D. 500-1500, also know as the Dark Ages, people were forbidden to read or possess the bible. Rome burnt bibles along with their owners. Nazis burnt the bible. Hundred and thousands of years later, the Bible is the world’s BEST SELLER. It endures FOREVER.

The grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of our God endures forever.” ~Isaiah 40:8

Enemies are so desperate to destroy the Word of God because it contains the Truth that sets you free. So they try to distract you from reading the bible. They try to send people to lead you astray (so you must be bold and committed). They put offences (weeds) in your heart to choke the word.

The bible transforms and strengthens you. The bible inspires you teaches you His ways and His will. The Word cleanses you. It brings you joy and peace. It brings light in your darkness.

So get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls.~James 1:21
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. ~John 1:1
Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light for my pathway. ~ Psalm 119:105

In the coming new year, let the Word of God be the Anchor to your soul. When your thoughts run wild or you are in the midst of trials and tribulations, stand firm on His word. Do not be blown by the wind, freaked out or worried by the circumstances. It is not easy but when you are under attacked, cling on to the bible. Let Him be your ANCHOR.

Few years ago, I was going though deliverance. The spirit of lust was tormenting me. I was fighting thoughts that were so unclean and evil. I was crying out to God in my bedroom. I love Him and do not want to go back to my old life. I felt prompted to read the gospel. I read the 4 gospel and as I read, the thoughts slowly left me and I became calm and peaceful. Power of his word is amazing. Psalm 119 talks about how His words can preserves use save us and give us wisdom.

If your law had not been my delight, I would have perished in my affliction. I will never forget your precepts, for by them you have preserved my life. ~Psalm 119: 92-93

Oh, how I love your law! I meditate on it all day long. Your commands are always with me and make me wiser than my enemies. I have more insight than all my teachers, for I meditate on your statutes. I have more understanding than the elders, for I obey your precepts. ~ Psalm 119:98-100

Do you desire wisdom? Is it one of the thing on your prayer list? Feed on the Word of God. Are you fearful and worried about many things? Cast your cares alone is not enough. Feed on His word and let it grow and prosper in your heart. You will be like a tree planted by the rivers of water. You will bear fruit in the season, your leaf also shall not wither; And whatever you does shall prosper. Let His words scrub your heart clean from the ideas and mindset of the world.

Make reading the Word a priority in 2020 and meditate on it day and night as you go about your daily activities. Let His word sharpen your vision. Be careful with who you spend your time with. Be selective and have a high standard (not aloof or arrogant attitude) of your social circle. Continue to love people, pray for those who hate you and spitefully used you.

Doing Vision Board With God

Merry Christmas to all my American friends. I had such a good Christmas Day celebration this year. Best Christmas ever. Since I started my sabbatical leave a week ago, I caught up with friends I hardly had time for. It was well spent and I totally enjoyed our time together. I guess I’m a lot more relax and I can enjoy myself more.

It’s Boxing Day in Singapore. After all the Christmas meals and celebration. I’m taking this day to rest and seek the Lord. It’s a luxury to wake up whenever I want to. Pop a sermon before worshipping The Lord. It’s amazing to connect with Him during worship. His warm embrace never fail to bring fears of joy to my face. I sang, laughed, casted my cares and enjoy His company.

Vision 2020

Do you have a vision board? How do you set your goals and resolution? According to statistics, almost 80% of new year resolution failed by February! That’s quickly right? This year, my church group decided to do a vision board together. The year 2020 also means 20/20 vision. I pray all of us will be able to enter the new year with crystal clear vision.

His Plan Not Mine

I used to give God a list of things I want to happen in my life. This year, I told The Lord that I have no plans. I’ll take whatever He gives me. He’s a good Father and all He gives me is sure good right? And it’s exciting to let Him plan for you. So as I was spending time with him today, The Lord has got presents for me! I was so excited and I opened 3 of them!!! And I got a bit overwhelmed after that 😁

First Present 🎁

The first box is golden box with red wrapper. I opened it and it’s a small carousel figurine! With music. It’s a lot elaborated than the picture below but you get the idea.

Second Present 🎁

The second box is blue with red ribbons. I opened it and saw a knife. I don’t like it but I pressed in and a saw a small book with names in it. Like a book of life!

Third Present 🎁

The third box is purple with maroon ribbons. It’s a figurine of a boy kissing a girl and there was an arc. It’s a wedding! Like the image below but it’s a figurine.

I shared the above with my mentor. She said that for the first box, God wanted to restore my childhood dream. What’s my childhood dream? Do I want to dance? She saw a ballerina! I was in tears. When I was little, I often imagine myself dancing. But my parents only signed me up for drawing lessons. So at age of 35, God wanted to restore my childhood dream of being a ballerina? 😂

Restoring Childhood Dreams

My mentor told me that it’s not to be a professional dancer but when I do it, it satisfies the soul. Well.. I’ll pray for open doors and adults ballet classes! Time to get flexible!

Book of Life 📖

For the second box, I have to forgive people who offended me. Alright! I have done that but will do that again since my mentor said so. I pray that all hidden sins and unforgiveness will be pluck out from my heart.

Restoring ❤️ Relationship

For the third box, I kept asking my mentor if it is from God. Was it my flesh or really God wanted to give me a partner? (I’m single for almost 7 years). I have the desire to be married but is it really from God?

She asked me why am I afraid? That shook me up. That is a desire that God gave me and naturally He want to fulfill it. Why do I doubt? Is it because I don’t think He is a good father or I do not think I am good enough? If people really know me, will they reject me? I was shaken at that thought.

My mentor encouraged me to follow my heart desire. I must be able to see it. If I have no vision, even when it comes, I’ll reject it because my spirit has been rejecting it. Her words of wisdom opened my eyes. I have to confront my fears because God want to bring a godly man into my life.

Doing vision is a very personal journey with God and I get to discover the desires that He has put in my heart. That helps me experience the love of the Father.

I prostrated myself before God and thank Him for His gifts. I humbly accepts His will and plan for my life. I repented for doubting and feeling unworthy. I do not deserve it and it’s purely by His grace and mercy. I thank Him for that childhood dream and that godly life partner ❤️

My church group will be coming together to do a vision board at end the year. So I have some items to put up! I shall continue to seek Him the next few days for His vision for me.

I’m excited!!!! I shall keep you guys posted. Gonna go for a run now to burn those calories!

Entering in 2020 with Book of Joshua

Joshua is the central figure of the book. His original name is Hoshea, son of Nun, which means “salvation”. He was the assistant to Moses and personally mentored by him. He was often hanging around the tabernacle after Moses finished his prayer. He was one of the two spies sent to Jericho who believe they can conquer the land. Moses called him Joshua, which means “Yahweh is Salvation”. This is symbolic because Joshua is the leader of the children of Israel. He led millions of ex-salves into the promise land. He was the great conqueror who achieved amazing victories. But The Lord is the Real Conqueror. Glory to The King!

So the LORD spoke to Moses face to face, as a man speaks to his friend. And he would return to the camp, but his servant Joshua the son of Nun, a young man, did not depart from the tabernacle. Exodus 33:11

I read the Book of Joshua many times. Today, I was reading it again, I felt we should enter 2020 with the mindset from the book of Joshua. The last decade is gone. Moses is dead. To be honest, Joshua has big shoes to fill. But did he copy Moses’ leadership style or try to be like him? No. HE IS JOSHUA.

God is bringing us to a new place. We have never gone this way before. So we need to trust Him. He has given us great promises! I am excited at His plans for me. He loves to surprise his children with awesome things. 🙂

We are about a week into a brand new decade. A lot has happened in the last 10 years. I tasted successes and failures at work. I broke up with a man whom I thought will marry me (found another girl one month later). Abandoned at 1 month old and raised by a foster family, my biological mother appeared before dying of cancer 2 months later. God called me to leave a popular church I was planted in for 8 years to another one (one which I previously persecuted and spoke badly of). I moved out from my parents home. I received major healing and deliverance and was set free from many bondages which I never knew was possible. God sent a godly mentor into my life to love and guide me. I trusted the wrong people. I changed my friends so many times. I found a new cell group where I can grow and develop as a christian. I was offended and learnt forgiveness. I was persecuted by my family for my faith. I went through great ups and downs, disappointments, betrayal and all that emotional roller coaster stuff. Things never turn out the way I expected.

²“Moses My servant is dead. Now therefore, arise, go over this Jordan, you and all this people, to the land which I am giving to them—the children of Israel. ³Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given you, as I said to Moses. ⁴From the wilderness and this Lebanon as far as the great river, the River Euphrates, all the land of the Hittites, and to the Great Sea toward the going down of the sun, shall be your territory. ⁵No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life; as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you. ⁶Be strong and of good courage, for to this people you shall ^[a]divide as an inheritance the land which I swore to their fathers to give them. ⁷Only be strong and very courageous, that you may observe to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you; do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may ^[b]prosper wherever you go. ⁸This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you^[c] shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. ⁹Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:2-9

From the above verses, God has promised us and instructed us on a few things. May we put it in practice in 2020 and enjoy a decade of good success.

Everywhere we set our foot on, He has given us
No man shall stand against you
I will be with you and not forsake you
Be strong and courageous
Do not look to left or right
Meditate on His words

Joshua and Caleb, two of the spies, spoke up. “If the Lord delights in us, then He will bring us into this land and give it to us … Only do not rebel against the Lord, nor fear the people of the land, for they are our bread; their protection has departed from them, and the Lord is with us.”

Both Joshua and Caleb has a different spirit. They have a spirit of faith. A spirit that doesn’t shrink back when faced with challenges. A spirit that says “give me that mountain!”

Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given you

In 2020, there will be challenges. In the midst of these challenges, do we remember what God says? He said that wherever you have set your foot on, He has given you. Where are you today? Are you working? Do you have a family? He has given you His victory at the workplace. Be faithful with little and He will give you more. Put on your best attitude. He said you will be the head and not the tail. Do you have children who no longer attends church? Pray and claim the verse that say ” As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord! Thank you Jesus that my son serves God!” In the next decade, claim that territory that belongs to you. Take it by force by the Word of God.

2) No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life

Whatever God has called to to do, no one can stop you. We must remember that He will always have our back. No matter what. Or are we distracted by what co-worker is doing or scheming behind your back? That friend who thinks you are so stupid to start your own business? Are you offended when someone step on your toe? Are we concerned when the bills don’t add up? Hey! He promised He will supply all your needs! In 2020, I pray that all of us will remember his Word. No matter what happens, no one can stop you from accomplishing what He has put in your heart. No one can stop him from taking care of you. I pray that every time you feel pressured, Word of God oozes out of your entire being.

“All people are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord endures forever. 1 Peter 1:24,25

3) I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you

God is with us. He always has been and will always be. Till the end of time. In the coming new year, remember that He is with us. He is the God of the mountain top and the God of the valley. He is there to be our Supporter, Comforter, Provider, Best Friend, Advocate and our God. Whatever we need, He is. If you lose someone, let Him comforts you. Be immerse in His love for you. Turn on worship songs that sings of His love. If you need someone to talk to, bring Him our for coffee. Talk to Him like friend. I often do that and He loves it. When the bills don’t add up, look up! Cry out to Him! He will direct your path and send help (He did that for me this year). He is right there for you and with you. Call upon Him.

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4) Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed

God commanded us be strong and courageous. We do not shrink back and think it is not possible. Fear is not of God. It is the opposite of faith and they don’t live together in your heart. In 2020, I have decided to kick fear out of my life. I want to stop circling around this mountain. It has no part in me and I’m so sick of letting it rob me of my joy and peace. Fear of rejection, fear of being alone, fear of failure, fear of shame, fear of embarrassment, fear of death, fear of demons, fear of sickness, fear of promises never coming true. Fear is torment. Only perfect cast out fear. I will take communion everyday and I rebuke and bind this unclean spirit. Whatever it has taken from me, it has to return me 7 folds. Strength and courage is my portion for 2020.

5) Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left

Do not be distracted. Do not look at what your friends/ colleagues are accomplishing. Run your own race. This new year, I want to recommit myself to run my own race and not allow comparison to creep in. We are all in different seasons and are good in our own ways. Well… it is easy to say that but when temptation comes, it is a struggle. This year, I gave up comparison and ungodly competition. I pray that other people will be better than me. I pray they will achieve much much more than whatever I can achieve. I celebrate their successes in my heart. I prayed they will get everything I ever wanted. I kept praying and surrendering till I was set free. Hallelujah! My identity and value are not tied to my achievements. Now I am free to do what God has called me to do. I don’t have to keep myself so busy making sure others are ‘below’ me. I am free to be me and I enjoy myself much more. I am able to see the good in myself and acknowledge that I came a long way. Joyce Meyer always says “I not where I need to be, but I am not where I used to be!”.

6) Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth

Meditate of the Word of God should not be something a believer should do when we remember to do so. It should be a lifestyle. When we put on the armour of God, only the word is the defensive weapon. The devil will come for you. The battlefield is our mind. That’s why the bible tell us to gird up the loins of our mind! One thoughts leads to another and very soon the whole world seems to be collapsing. When we keep our mind on heavenly things, the enemies can’t plant thoughts of defeat or despair in us. This is also how we can renew our mind from old mindset (poverty, hopelessness, despair, anger, hatred, unforgiveness, etc).

I am particularly weak when I wake up in the morning. That was the time when I realise the enemy likes to plant thoughts in my mind. They want to ruin my day. So I also planted the sword of the spirit in this area where I am weak. So once I woke up, I will purposely prepare certain verses and I will think about it with all my strength. Submit to God, resist the devil and He will leave you.

Lastly, I want to let you know that your enemies are AFRAID of you. They are so afraid that you will know the truth. They are so afraid that your mind will be renewed and you will rise up. They tried to stop you from going to church, reading the bible, plant offences in your heart so you will meditate on the wrong things and leave the church. They are so afraid you will use the authority God has given you. They sent people to destroy your confidence and identity since you were a child. But God has a plan for you and me. He has redeemed us and our past can no longer hold us back anymore.

¹¹And as soon as we heard these things, our hearts melted; neither did there remain any more courage in anyone because of you, for the Lord your God, He isGod in heaven above and on earth beneath. Joshua 2:11

Let’s armed ourselves with the truth- Word of God. Put on the Armour of God, stand firm to welcome the new decade.

A Mentor

There are many amazing men and women of God in the bible who never fails to inspire and encourage us. Their faith and unwavering trust in God has moved mountains and do unusual miracles.

Today, I want to share about one thing Moses did right. What can life of Moses teach us about success today? He is a man who started his ministry at 80. He has an impossible task of bringing the children of God out from the land of slavery. We all know the story and the victories God gave Moses and the people he led. In the end, he did not even entered the promised land.

Moses allowed mentor into his life.
God just gave him a victory over the enemies. They were all drowned in the Red Sea. However, to manage and lead a few million ex-slaves is not a simple task. He became a judge over the people and was so busy from morning till evening. (Imagine all the fights, rivalry, quarrels, disputes and marriage problems of a few millions people are all on your shoulders!)

Moses’ father-in-law replied, “What you are doing is not good. ¹⁸You and these people who come to you will only wear yourselves out. The work is too heavy for you; you cannot handle it alone. ¹⁹Listen now to me and I will give you some advice, and may God be with you. You must be the people’s representative before God and bring their disputes to him. ²⁰Teach them his decrees and instructions,and show them the way they are to live and how they are to behave. ²¹But select capable men from all the people—men who fear God, trustworthy men who hate dishonest gain—and appoint them as officials over thousands, hundreds, fifties and tens. ²²Have them serve as judges for the people at all times, but have them bring every difficult case to you; the simple cases they can decide themselves. That will make your load lighter, because they will share it with you. ²³If you do this and God so commands, you will be able to stand the strain, and all these people will go home satisfied.”²⁴Moses listened to his father-in-law and did everything he said. (Exodus 18)

Mentorship requires humility. Moses just delivered the children of Israel. He could have told his father-in-law “Do you know who I am? What I just did? Now you are advising me?” Despite his victory, Moses is humble enough to accept advice from someone. After all, bible said that he was the meekest man on earth.

I am very fortunate to have a mentor who loves me deeply. He is trustworthy and honest. A person of wisdom, intelligence and high character standards. Even then, I struggled a lot. Because very often, when someone wanted to give us advice, we may feel bad or ‘not good enough’ as it exposes our weakness. Sometimes I’m hurt and defensive. But I know I have put down my pride and choose to submit. Initially I did it because that is the way of God and it pleases Him. After a while, God gave me the grace to understand the reason behind it. And I am glad I obeyed God.

Mentorship is a relationship, not a transaction. Mentors does not give you all the answers to your life but to challenge your beliefs and help you to grow to a new level. So that you can be more effective and efficient in your game.

SOMEONE WHO BELIEVES IN YOU
I pray that God will send you someone who believes in you. Basically, this person LOVES you. He/she is motivated by love.

~1 Cor 13:7 Loves believes all things, hopes all things~

You may believe in yourself, but sometimes, we may be fooled by our own doubts and fears. When you doubt yourself and If you have a more experienced person who believes and motivates you, you will be empowered to endure and persevere. You will have the strength to go on and not give up. This will creates a healthy and encouraging environment where you can thrive and grow. A loving environment! Let’s face it. Life is not a bed of roses and success is not easy. When you are breaking down, only a successful environment can help you to get up and fight again.

SOMEONE WHO SHOWS YOU THE WAY
I pray God will send you someone who can show you the way. This can save you years of wandering around the same mountain. (Those people took 40 years for a 11 days journey) From where you are now to where you want to be, there could be wrong assumptions, setbacks, blindspots, unrealistic expectations and many other challenges. I pray God will send you this mentor who can guide you in the right direction and refocus your efforts towards your goals. I pray he/she will have the necessary experience in your industry or ministry. I pray he/she will share with you all the secrets and tricks to success in that area and hence, shorten your learning curve.

A mentor can share with you all the bad decisions they made in the past, so you don’t have to repeat the same mistakes.

SOMEONE WHO BRINGS OUT THE BEST IN YOU
I pray God will send you someone who brings out the best in you. Mentorship is tough love. They will love you enough to tell you what you need to hear. They are not afraid to offend or hurt you because they love you and know that is the best for you. Many times such conversations are painful but necessary. That’s how they bring out the best in you. How and when to give you constructive criticism is an art. Some people like to use the ‘sandwich’ method where they will praise you and by the way, highlight your mistakes, then bring out your good qualities again. But that doesn’t necessary makes it completely not “painful” or “hurtful”. It’s a good thing. Embrace it. (I’m not talking about people who put your down or use it as an opportunity to attack you personally. Pray for wisdom to know the difference. )

I pray that our good Father in Heaven knows what you need. He loves you and at the right time, He will send you a mentor with the right values and beliefs to bring you to a new level so you can be more effective and efficient in what you do. You shall walk in your destiny, be who He has called you to be and be a blessing everywhere you go. Well, Moses did not make it into the promise land but he mentored someone who did. He name is Joshua.

Walking In The light

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, ‘I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life. John 8:12
I have come as a light into the world, that whoever believes in Me should not abide in darkness. John 12:46
God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. ⁶If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. 1 John 5:6
He who says he is in the light, and hates his brother, is in darkness until now. 1 John 9
For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. James 3:16

Jesus said He is the Light of the world. A world full of darkness but many people love darkness rather than the light as their work is evil. This is a fallen world and it is dark, full of evil works. As children of God, are we living as light of the world? We have the Spirit of God but do we let our light shine and bear good fruits?

But he who hates his brother is in darkness and walks in darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes. 1 John 2:9-11

Lets us not be deceived. Hating someone is evil. Envy and strife or selfish ambition is also evil. Word of God says when we hate our brother, we ARE IN DARKNESS, WALKS IN DARKNESS and ARE LOST and BLINDED. Is that how we want to live? Let us seek the Lord and repent for our evil works. Let the presence and Word of God cleanse us from unforgiveness, jealousy and envy. These evil works poison our hearts and block our blessings. It creates confusion and bear bad fruits.

I have seen hatred disguised as being pious or religious. A lady I knew loved to gossip and speaking badly about someone repeatedly. According to her, the reason why she is sharing with others is so that we can pray for that person. Was there even a prayer spoken?! That is a lie from hell! Wolf hiding under sheep skin. We should not tolerate it but gently remind such people that these actions are wrong and hope they will repent. If not, avoid bad company as it corrupts good character.

When we choose to forgive and not hate, we choose love and abide in the Light. God is the Light of the world, He is also Love. How do we tell the difference between children of God and children of devil? if we do not love, we can’t abide in Him nor shine for Him. Hating someone is abiding in death, murderer and has no eternal life. I didn’t came up with that. Check out the verses below.

In this the children of God and the children of the devil are manifest: Whoever does not practice righteousness is not of God, nor is he who does not love his brother. 1 John 3:10
He who loves his brother abides in the light, and there is no cause for stumbling in him. 1 John 10
We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love the brethren. He who does not love ^[c]his brother abides in death. ¹⁵Whoever hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him. 1 John 3:14,15

How do we love?

We forgive one another. We accept one another. It was difficult for me initially as I was from a very broken background. Abandoned and forsaken, my foster mom (unbeliever) taught me to always remember what others did to me. When I became a christian, I need to forgive. My mentor asked me to do up a list of people who have hurt me and people who I am angry with. I forgave them, release them and even write a letter to them (I did not send it out). It was such a emotional exercise. I cried and cried. Little did I know that was a healing process. When I forgive, God can bring healing into the places of my heart where it was wounded.

As I continue to immerse in worship and word of God, He continues to heal and restores my life. Now it is a lot easier but offences will always come. Sometimes everyday. People will offend you, say things that hurt or embarrass you. Whether it was intentional or not, we need to guard our hearts and always choose to forgive and pray for the person. This opens a door to allow God to do a work in their lives too. Our problems doesn’t disappear on the day be accept Jesus as our Saviour. To truly forgive, we must grow in maturity as a believer. Grow in the Word, grow in our relationship with God and grow in fellowship with other believers. We MUST stay rooted and fruits will grow.

My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth. 1 John3:18
And this is His commandment: that we should believe on the name of His Son Jesus Christ and love one another, as He gave ^[f]us commandment. Now he who keeps His commandments abides in Him, and He in him. 1 John 3:23, 24

2) Love in deed and in truth. Genuine love is not just speaking loving words. Loving and kind words are extremely important in the body of Christ. Words can build or destroy. But love cannot be just limited to words but also in actions especially when an urgent need arise. I love Romans 12. I must quote the whole passage here. This what Jesus will do. Love in action!

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. ¹⁰Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. ¹¹Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. ¹²Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. ¹³Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality.
¹⁴Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. ¹⁵Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. ¹⁶Live in harmony with one another.Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.^[c] Do not be conceited.
¹⁷Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. ¹⁸If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. ¹⁹Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”^[d] says the Lord. ²⁰On the contrary:
“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”^[e]
²¹Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Would we welcome strangers to our home? How do we treat people who did evil to us? Are we willing to share what we have with others? Are we willing to be friends with people of low position or are we too busy climbing social ladder to associate with a “certain” clique? Are we living in peace with everyone? Lets be like Jesus, the Light of the world. Let’s us shine with love in a world of darkness.

To Live A Life Of A Conqueror

Few days ago, someone shared a piece of news with me. A friend of ours committed suicide. He has been taking drugs, trying to get money from friends to pay for his addiction. He was tormented and felt hopeless. One Sunday afternoon, he dressed up in his best and jumped off from his bedroom window.

Since then, I have read so much testimonies on how people break free from different addictions and live happily helping others to overcome the same addiction. However, there are people who are like my friend. They chose the other path.

Everyone goes through tough times. Life can throw us challenges. Do we bow down to our circumstances and allow them to conquer us? How can we rise up to be a conqueror?

How To Live A Life Of A Conqueror

Conquer Our Mind
Ever struggle with uncontrollable repetitive thoughts? Do you have a harsh inner critic that condemns you whenever you make a mistake? These negative train of thoughts can destroy our lives.

We can’t have a positive life with a negative mind. Many people try different ways to distract themselves. Alcohol, food, social activities, new relationships or even new hobbies. These are just activities to bring short term happiness or to numb the problems.

Negative thinking are implanted in us. Remember that teacher that humiliate you in class? That friend that rejected you at first grade? Family members ignore you and treat you as if you don’t exist. That boss or co-worker that make you feel inferior and not good enough? Once we believe these lies, we start to meditate about it, they will be implanted in our belief system. Self doubt, shame, low self-esteem and feeling like you are not good enough will set in. Roots of bitterness and resentment will slowly build up In your heart. In some cases, people will make inner vows like ‘I’ll never let another person hurt me again!’ or ‘I’ll never love anyone again’.

This is a vicious cycle. The person will be totally sucked into a dark bottomless pit or built a castle with fortified wall that no one can ever come close. Others will start labeling them as anti-social, weird or awkward.

Instead of trying to remove the symptoms(negative thoughts), let meet the problem at its roots. I struggled with negative thoughts all my life. I tried many ways only to end up beating myself up.

The MOST effective way for me is to FORGIVE these people who have hurt me. Release them and wish the best for them. It may sound unfair, but you are setting yourself free. I did a list of people who I need to forgive and I release them one by one. I realize those negative thoughts reduced significantly on that day I did it! It really works! I feel so much better without that weight on my chest! For the next few weeks, I refused to be complacent. I stay vigilant to protect and guard my thoughts. It takes 21 days to form a habit. So press in! Don’t give up. Continue the process. Keep forgiving and let go of those hurts and pains.

REPLACE these negative thoughts/words with positive ones. When I was 7, a boy in my class told me everyone thinks I’m the ugliest girl in school. That made me feel so lousy and self conscious. As an adult, no makeup or pretty dresses can remove that feeling. I replace that ‘ugliest girl in school’ with ‘I’m beautiful’ and ‘I’m loved’. Learn to love yourself by doing and speaking nice things about you!

Have A Different Perspective

Is the glass half full or half empty? Two person can look at the same situation and have totally different perspective. An optimistic person will see good in any situations. A pessimist will see doom and gloom. What is sensible and right to one maybe be absurd to another. Conflicts and arguments arises as a result of different perspectives. Countless families and friendships are broken because of different perspectives.

Studies have shown that people interpret situations based on their past experiences and beliefs system. We give meaning to things and situations. We see things as we are. In another words, we see what we want to see. And we are so sure that we are right.

We can be wrong too. Be open for another person perspective

Are we able to put down our pride and be willing to understand why another person think and behave in a way that is different from us? Do we want to listen to their story and explore common ground to seek a win-win situation?

This is the secret to success in any relationships! If we are able to master this skill, we will radically change our lives! It brings compassion and empathy to our relationships. Culture at workplaces and social circles will change. Your sphere of influence will change. I will share more on this topic in my upcoming articles.

Be open to other perspectives and see yourself conquering in the area of relationships.

Taking Action

Taking action is the most important step in being a conqueror. We can read all the self help books and do all the positive self affirmation but if we do nothing, nothing is going to happen.

So what are we conquering? What’s holding us back? It’s FEAR. Fear of failure. What will my friends think of me? What if I business doesn’t takes off? What if I lose everything?

I remembered when I was asked to speak in public for the first time. My hands couldn’t stop shaking. Someone told me “If you think your hands will shake when you speak, you will”. That was a revelation to me. I was so focused on that. In fact, I should spend more time on my script! What a waste of time! I was afraid of something that may not even happen!

How do we overcome this?

1) I share my fear with people I trust. People who I know will not gossip behind my back or start laughing till they fall off the chair. Sometimes I share with people who used to have similar challenges and they have overcome that fear barrier. Trust me. They will give you the support you need.

2) Take tiny steps. Take calculated risk. It is less intimidating and builds your confidence along the way. For example, let’s say I always wanted to start a business. I can explore ways and channels that I can learn or try it out without putting in too much investments. I may approach a friend who has business experience or take a course on e-commerce. Just do something! Watch YouTube videos on that topic. Read up blogs that writes about it. Instead of having imaginary conversation with someone, just talk to them. Smile and see how it goes.

So let’s get started and share in the comments section on what are the actions you took today! Inspire us today!

When Going Through Hard Times

Life is full of ups and downs. It is a series of mountain tops and valleys. Difficult times are part and parcel of life.

How we respond to it really speaks a lot about who we are. Do we get better or bitter? Do we complain or try to approach the situation in another way?

What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.

“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.”
‭‭James‬ ‭1:2-3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Be Grateful

There are so many things In life that we often took for granted. We can be grateful for our eyes. I am so thankful everyday that I can see. It’s a miracle how light enters my eyes and send images to my brain that help me to interpret it. There are people who cannot see. Be thankful for your tastebuds that allows you to enjoy your food.

There was a period of time I was challenged financially. I was down to my last $10. I was at home and I have totally no idea what to do. Business wasn’t performing the way I wanted it to be and bills are piling up. I took out my journal and write down the things I’m thankful for. One of the things I thank God for is the fact that I’m at home, writing a journal. Some people doesn’t have a home. Some people are fighting for their life at the hospital. I woke up this morning without a chemo appointment! I have clean drinkable water readily available for me. And thats amazing!

How many times Apostle Paul had to endure hardships unimaginable. 3 times shipwrecked, wrongly accused, beaten, scourged, imprisoned, etc. Many times he don’t even know if he can get out alive or be torched the next day. But he said Rejoice!! Apostle Paul is definitely someone whose hope is in the Lord. Not to the left nor to the right. But right at heaven, where he belong.

Rejoice in the Lord always! -Phi 4:4

There’s always things we can be thankful for. Look for it.

Stop That Blame Game

It’s easy to point fingers at others when things go wrong. It does make us feel less guilty and avoid judgement. But by blaming others, we do make them feel bad and condemned. In some cases, relationships are broken. I guess that’s why many marriages are being attacked.

Stop blaming your spouse, company, bosses, that friend, that government, that weather, etc. Take responsibility for your role in the situation. We cannot control what happen to us, but we can control how we respond to them. Then you can develop the mental toughness to go through hard times. When you don’t blame others, you become more resilient and confident.

Ask God for wisdom. Ask Him to teach you what to do and how to express yourself when you are overwhelmed.

“But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.”
‭‭James‬ ‭1:4-5‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Practice Self Love

Be your best encourager. Acknowledge that you came a long way. You were not where you used to be. Be your own best friend.

Do not wait for your family or friends to cheer you on. It’s a blessing if they do. But you must be your best supporter.

Be generous to yourself. I’m not saying that you go out and spend money like crazy. It definitely ok to give yourself a treat sometimes so long it’s within our means. An ice creams never fails to cheer me up! Be gracious in your words towards yourself. We are very often our worst critic. How do you talk to yourself when you are down or make a mistake? I used to bash myself up and think I’m not a good christian. Nowadays, I run right to Daddy God. I apologise and thank Him for His forgiveness and acceptance. He loves you and me. We will make mistakes but forgiveness and grace is available through Jesus. I strongly believe that only then we the victorious life. Because we depend on Him, not our own righteousness. He restores me, guide me on what to do and calms me down.

You will realize that you enjoy being with you! Yes! Even during times of stress and difficulties, we can have fun. Acknowledge that you are doing your best. You can have joy regardless of circumstances and having that belief that everything will be ok. That’s faith!

You may ask ‘what if things doesn’t work out?’ Even if things doesn’t work out, I believe that we did what we can and that is awesome. Nothing in life is guaranteed. At least we try because we are not quitters! If things never works out, so be it. Just like Daniel’s friends when they were being thrown into the furnace.

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego answered and said to the king, “O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this matter. ¹⁷If that is the case, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. ¹⁸But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship the gold image which you have set up.” – Daniel 3:16-18

Hang Out With Positive People

Heard of the quote “You are the sum total of the five people you hang around with most’? It’s the truth.

Happiness is a choice and we need to be reminded by people who made that choice. Positive people sees the good in any circumstances, they practice gratitude, forgives easily and seeks joy daily! They will have positive that will rub off you. They will encourage you to take calculated risk, learn a new skills or start that business and how to do it!

On the contrary, if you always hang out with negative people who dashes your hopes and aspirations, not only will you not achieve great things in life, you will be negative like them. You will go around and dashing people’s dreams. You will also get their negative traits. Judging others, jealous of people success, gossiping, etc. Its a totally waste of your time and energy. Imagine the kind of person you will become.

Bad company corrupts good character. I met a lady in church and she was really nice to me. She knows how to say things that I like to hear and slowly gain my trust. We became best friends. She shared with me her secrets and marriage woes. She shared with me how lowly are her colleagues who makes pointless calls to clients. She mocks and speak badly of other repeatedly. I wasn’t comfortable but I didn’t say no. I was sucked into her world and her problems became my problems. Whoever she spoke badly of, I start to dislike and become judgemental towards them for no reason. I was influenced by just listening and drinking from her spirit. One day a man of God came and gave me a word. He told me to have wholesome and godly conversation with this lady. Learn to say no and change the topic. But I couldn’t until one day, the anointing from this man of God hit me and I saw the light. I felt something was broken. I immediately break the ungodly soul ties with this lady and I repented. Without knowing what happened, she frantically kept texting me to meet up for then next one week. I refused. That controlling spirit within her has lost it’s power over me. Praise God.

The reason why I share this story is to let you know the danger of confiding and hanging out with the wrong people. I learnt this the hard way. During that time, my business suffered and I do not have any other friends. We formed ungodly soul ties, get sucked into their issues and we see things from their perspectives, instead of seeking God and see what He sees.

Now I urge you, brethren, note those who cause divisions and offenses, contrary to the doctrine which you learned, and avoid them. ¹⁸For those who are such do not serve our Lord ^[d]Jesus Christ, but their own belly, and by smooth words and flattering speech deceive the hearts of the simple. Romans 16:17-18

You may have to change your friends. Good friends doesn’t mean they are good for you. I made some tough choices to drop some people in my life. I had to be alone for a while but it’s the best decision I’ve made. I took that time to focus on myself. Who I am and what I want to achieve? I had to silence that negativity. I become who I want to be and attract the right people into my life.

Trust me. When you are going through a tough season, be it your marriage or business, you need friends who are positive. Friends who can lift you out of depression. Friends who can help you see the light.

Learn From It

Don’t waste this precious life experience. Understand why you fall, cry it out and pick yourself up. Focus on solution and don’t make the same mistakes again. Do not keep walking around the same mountain.

If you are going through a financial difficulty, learn how you can cut expenses. Find out how you can spend $10 to meal prep for a week. Sell away some of your stuff like TV or handbags to pay off some debts. Be creative. Learning to live frugally help me to appreciate the value of money. It teaches me to me thankful when someone buys me a meal. There are so many things I took for granted that I’m so thankful for now. It makes me a better person and I’m thankful for that experience.

Tough times don’t last. Tough people do. Don’t give up!!

Waiting on God

Today, we live in a microwave society. We want and expect everything to be fast and accordingly to our way. I remembered few years ago, I had a lousy day at work. I decided to go to a cafe to grab a coffee and someone was blocking my way at the door. I step aside and gave him a “irritated” look. Holy Spirit convicted me and I repented for that act. It was so rude. Nobody owed me anything. Just because I had a lousy day doesn’t mean I can treat others rudely.

~Love… does not behave rudely… – 1 Corinthians 13:5

We may not realise it but what kind of seeds are we sowing today? We reap what we sow no matter how small or insignificant it may be. It can be a disapproving look at a cashier because they are taking a bit too long. Or the sarcastic tone when we talk to our investment manager when our portfolio didn’t perform. There is no love in this self entitlement attitude.

I am in a season where I am waiting on God for breakthroughs for almost every area of my life. I am waiting on God to move in my finances, family, career and relationships. This waiting season is not easy. I get bashed, ridiculed, insulted and shamed because I do not do what the world do. I chose to be set apart and follow God. I attended weddings after weddings and have to celebrated the victories of others. Someone get the very deal I am praying for. Many times I wonder whether if His promises in my life will ever come to past. Initially I got angry and upset that I am not getting what I want and I have to suffer shame because of that.

Today I thank God that He made me to wait. Waiting exposes the conditions of my heart. I was upset and angry because I wanted to be admired and respected by people. I wanted to have what I want when I want it (sense of entitlement). I want to look good in front of others. That expensive house or that rich boyfriend that can shower expensive gifts on me. The pride of life! My heart was full of idols.

What about me? What about me? Where’s my career breakthrough? Why did this person get that deal and I didn’t? God, I obeyed you and I tell others about You! Why am I not blessed?

I went on my knees and ask God for repentance. I repent that I wanted all these things to get attention and admiration from people. I live for the praises of men. I repent and surrendered my life everyday and ask God to fill the void in my heart. I got to stuff my face in the Word of God. I let go of the love for money and learn to be content with what I have. I thank God that He did not give me what I want. But He gave me what I truly need- Jesus.

Right now, I am still waiting for God for the same breakthroughs. I believe it will come but I don’t know when and how. But I know He is a good good Father and His plans for me is the best and fastest plan.

In Psalm 37, He promised to exalt those who trust Him to inherit the land. He promised His children will never lack or go begging for food. I believe it with all my heart. But even if I don’t ever get what I want, it doesn’t matter. He is still God and Heaven is my home. I want to love Him all my life and I want to proclaim to everyone that He is God and He is worth living for.

When Daniel’s friends were being threatened to be thrown into the blazing furnace, they declare their faith in God to rescue them. But even if He doesn’t, they rather perish than to bow down to anyone except the One true God.

~¹⁶Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. ¹⁷If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us^[c] from Your Majesty’s hand. ¹⁸But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.” Daniel 3:16-18

I no longer feel angry or painful when others seems to get ahead of me or get what I have been praying for. I have truly let go… because I already have what I truly want- Jesus. I was set free from that prison. The prison is the pride of life.

~The grass withers, the flower fades, But the word of our God stands forever… Isaiah 40:8

Today, I pray you will find your value and contentment in Christ alone. I pray you will let Him complete the work in You and not resist it. I pray You persevere and never give up when things are tough but trust in His faithfulness.

~ Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Psalm 37:4-5

The Waiting Room

I believe many of us are still in the ‘waiting room’ for God’s promises to come to past. It can be a promotion, a spouse, a house or a financial breakthrough. Personally I have been waiting on God for open doors for many areas of my life for a while. It’s not easy especially when people around us are enjoying the breakthrough we have been praying for. Sometimes it feels as if we are forgotten. Will God’s promises ever be fulfilled in my life? Will He open that door in His appointed time?

I want to encourage you today with a few verses in the bible.

~2 Cor 1:20 For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us.

~1 Thess 5:24 He who calls you isfaithful, who also will do it.

~Romans 10:11 Anyone who believes in him will never be put to shame.

~Psalm 37: 19 They will not be disgraced in hard times; even in famine they will have more than enough.

Our God is a God of promise. There are certain things in our life that God will do for us only if we rest in Him. We are sons and daughters of the most high God. We are not orphans, left alone and forgotten. He is our Father and He seeks the best for you and me.

While in the ‘waiting room’, let us learn to seek His face and be content with what He has given us in this season. Let us be faithful with little. Lets us praise Him for He is so good and His plan for us is the best plan. Rejoice and celebrate the victories of others. Forgive and bless those who hurt and curse you. Let us shake away the comparison, jealous and strive that stumble our walk with God.

He is working even when we cannot see.

When we truly live for Him, we will not compare our lives with others.

He is our Provider. He is the one who clothe the lilies in the fields and feeds the birds and they neither toil nor spin. Why would he not freely give us all things when He already gave us Jesus, Heaven’s treasure. Let us renew our trust and faith in Him today.

I pray that you will not give up. I pray that you will allow God to do the work He wanted to do in you. I pray He will give you supernatural strength to go through whatever you are going through now. You are more than a conqueror and He will do exceedingly abundantly above all you can ask or think.